Thoughts, Random and Not So Random

Her eyes said it all. They were a brilliant unnatural blue, and completely glacial. I knew my attempted overture was being rejected and without any excuses or reasons. She felt no compunction to offer even a crumb to me. It was those eyes. I felt more contemptible the longer I dared hold her gaze. "I'll show myself out." Shutting the door, I knew it was forever.

I'm setting a timer for 15 minutes and then letting the thoughts flow. 1> My husband 2. My beautiful son 3. Clean drinking water anytime I want it. 4. Family 5. A job 6. A house that's paid for 7. A working car, soon to be paid for 8. Loving friends 9. Modern medicine 10. A church home. 11. A great pastor 12. Shoes to keep my feet warm and dry 13. Decent clothes 14. Supermarkets with an abundance of all kinds of foods 15. Bug-free house 16. My dog, Zed 17. My cat, Wild Thing 18. A smartphone 19. A new laptop 20. My first published book. 21. My guitar 22. Health 23. Living in a democracy 24. Jesus. should have been number one. 25. People who have prayed for me. 26. Freedom of speech 27. Being able to help others in accordance with how God has blessed us. 28. Flowers 29. Nature's beauty 30. The Christian heritage my parents left me. 31. Not having to worry where my next meal is coming from. 32. Imagination and creativity 33. No hospitalizations this past year 34. Having

All I wanted was a man cave, half a garage. But it was the half with years of things I couldn't part with. I thought I could just call a "got junk" company and have it all hauled away. But then I saw the toolbox. Empty, but still. Then the ball. The magic ball I bought as art when I was 22 and had no idea of art was. Maybe I still don't, but it could stay. Might be worth more than I paid. Shoot, my man cave is shrinking. I think I'll open a cold one and and ponder this. <!-- start InLinkz script --> <div class='InLinkzContainer' id='807913' > <a rel='nofollow' href="http://www.inlinkz.com/new/view.php?id=807913" title="click to view in an external page.">An InLinkz Link-up</a></div> <script type='text/javascript' src='https://static.inlinkz.com/cs2.js'></script> <!-- end InLinkz script -->

Clutching the one small valise I had with a change of clothes, stationary, and a few family photos, especially the photo of the only woman I ever loved; the few things I knew could keep me going somehow on my own. I slipped aboard the last train leaving before the Wehrmacht made it impossible to flee. I breathed another prayer my forged papers would pass. Slowly, with the blast of the whistle, the train lurched forward and began the journey toward Switzerland and hope of reaching America. Freedom. Freedom to worship God and be a man, and not a worm. An InLinkz Link-up